End those love _ justing give a hint falls in love time

End, those love _ justing give a hint, falls in love time

A blank of emotional world of mine while knowing bigly.
It is small only Volkswagen dance hall of county town of ours to know the big place.
My identity is living apart while knowing bigly, and he divorces.

That day, get back to from Beijing the intersection of I and first time and elder sister go to the dance hall to dance behind the the little county town, the person dancing has very different quality, the level is different too.

It should be regarded as the outstanding one that big, after I step on his foot for several times, painstaking in his under leading, I found that kind of feeling of flying at last. Big been saying without ceasely all the time in my great wave great wave in one's ear, though the said one is mostly the polite on those officialdoms, those empty preaches. It is benefited from very much but at this moment to sound in my lonely ears. We jump straight, have been jumping all the time, has jumped to the last. The light is bright. I smoke and sell to say mildly and roundaboutly: Good-bye! He follows and says behind me: Will you please tell me your telephone number? I have looked at the elder sister nearby, have quoted my cell-phone number rapidly in but low voice, I think whether he can remember, that is not a thing that I should be in charge of.
Came back home and washed the short message of receiving him while gargling: Gentle teacher is very glad to know you.
I remember he had thinking all the time I was a teacher.
Three years ago, I am really still a primary school teacher of this small county town. However, for love online not so true, I pursue the happiness as the moth put out the fire, resign, run to Beijing, think prince and princess lived a happy life from now on not disregarding own safety. But the happiness is transient, for this transient happiness, I have stood the long torment. He can with the intersection of I and love online, can with other woman's love online too naturally. In three years, each of him is looking for the true love on the net untiringly, still call it by the fine-sounding name of: I am just playing games. Perhaps in his eyes, life is a game. I am downhearted, has got back to and grown the place where I raise me, while just coming back, I have been already penniless.
Certainly, I can't tell big these. When he asks whether I am the teacher. He has laughed with self-confidence: It is a teacher that I see you, so polite.
Having seen messages, I did not go back, wonder what to say.
At already seven o'clock while having supper the next day, and the ball began at half past seven. What schedule have in the evening to want to inquire her by telephone to the elder sister, just finds that one has not read messages: Gentle teacher, go to dance tonight? I wait for you. I answer a word quickly: OK!
When see him, he sits in a person's few corners, I, while passing by in front of him, he has stopped me gently. At this night, I have not jumped with others. He can take people very well, is always leading my every movement just right, advance and go backwards each time, I find that dancing with him is a kind of enjoyment. In front of me, he still great wave great wave without cease, and I, begin, like, see look of he speak. He does not look handsome, the skin has black some, he is very healthy. He the eyes are big, have life very much, when he spoke, eyes flash, flash, sometimes I will find he is seeing me stealthily too while stealing a glance at him. My heart was happy that I wanted at that time, happy. The mood is happy.
He has more and more sentences, and my words are fewer and fewer, I like looking at him so quietly frequently, the silent one misses him. I think, he is about thirty Forth Five-Year Plan Period years old, but his appearance seems a bit younger. He will often send an information to me. Make a phone call. Before sleeping one day, I saw an information that he sent over: The love of beating, love The full screens are all beating for a word: Love! My heart is baffled the quilt is happy to surround. But when meeting each other, nothing has been said. He had not told me his situation yet at that time. But I imagine the person of this kind of experience of mine, will not explain the love easily.
The ones that should come are to come. One evening, because I there were thing that have been delayed as going, received his message in the evening: I want to have a family, but someone has no him. I reply: Why No she? He says: This question is very complicated, are told you slowly later. He told me the next evening: He divorced three years ago, did not in fact have a great problem, it is the personality that did not get along well, always think two people are together and very awkward. He has a 10 -year-old daughter, follow the former wife. He says his former wife is a very competent person, work in the government department too. I knew him in a town as the vice chief of town that the executive educated at this time. I have expected my situation, the small county town that closes the country to international intercourse a little too in these one, not thought highly of by people very much without steady work. But can I deceive him again? I have told him my situation, certainly include that lost work of mine, the marriage of the death, with the two -year-old daughter.
He is reticent. I know he has an idea in the heart, but if should come, will come sooner or later. I am very calm.
He asks: How do you plan to do? Very ignorant in my heart. I have not done business, it is confused to step on the business done, but I do not plan to give up. Will you divorce? Certainly, I say.
That day's talk is a watershed. Since then, the indifference that I can feel him, but I did not think more either,
That sentence: The ones that should come will always come. Sometimes meet together and dance once in a while, say some unimportant words. He will always ask: How is your thing? I always say too: Still like that. Later on he ignored. I have not said either. Once I have not seen him for several days, meeting says sentence naturally: Do not see you still really miss you a bit for a few days. He says having me gently: In fact I miss you too. But I hope for you well. Then, he has kissed on my face gently: You are a good woman, will be happy. Finally, a sound of sighs gently of his: Well, it will be better if you have not got married.
Having passed for one month again, I tell him bigly to agree to divorce. He says: Can cross, had better not don't be left together, from can be very much lonely. I have no language. Having passed for one month again, I divorced. Have done all procedures well. He is still so calm, say: How about it? Is it very lonely to divorce? I lonely in fact, and one network it no realistic people, pleases to be together only, what contents will life have? He says calmly: Go to apply for a teacher, the structure of education is reformed now. I say: Besides.
Later, I had gone to Chengdu, had stayed for one month, the miss of him floated in mind slowly, a little is clear. The one that came back has already been ten o'clock on the same day evening, I phone him: Have not seen you for a long time, has really missed you. He says: Have you slept? I do not say, have just come back. Then come out for a walk.
Then change the most beautiful skirt, while seeing him, my heart has fallen into his big eyes quickly. A thin smile at his face go up by. We are walking slowly, are speaking. He says silently: Have divorced for a few years, not only did not find the one's own love, even find that has been losing ability of love gradually oneself. Have it seems to never say that especially miss a person, has not said either who can't does not see, it seems to be to see either all right, meet possible. All right either together, will not especially miss either not together. Even have one or two a aroused in interest one, will not maintain for a long time either. He says: I am not a good man.
I say actually I know you are not fit for me, but I miss you very much, that's it, what result without wanting, just miss you very much. I think this is my sincere words. Because I heard from elder sister he had perhaps made the girlfriend before coming back from Chengdu, have seen several their very intimate strolls hand in hand.
Having gone to the bank of the river slowly, the light of the street lamp goes down secretly little by little. Having touched his hands unintentionally, as soon as my heart shakes, hands have been drawn together. Having walked on a section of way again, we turn body simultaneously, embrace together tightly, I experience his body temperature, experience his breath, know it over four months, feel this man is close to such me for the first time. He kisses my face, my eyes, kiss to my lip finally. I have never seen him smoke, but smell his faint tobacco flavor in the mouth. We kiss embracing tightly, but I do not have an enchanted feeling. His hands began to put in my waist border, dissociated slowly later, put on my buttocks. I am a little sensitive, feel he changed at this time. I am a little afraid, because I do not want with anything happen to him. I resist a bit. A hand of his is embracing me tightly, another hand is moved to my front, I push away his hands hard, want to shake off his arms. He says with a smile gently: I'm afraid? I say coldly: I do not want that! He says: Don't worry, I can not do your thing unwilling. I say: Then let's go back, it is raining.
On the road to come back, the rain is heavier and heavier, he says: I give you a piggyback. I said I would walk, two people walk much faster than a person running. Later on we came back from a tricycle.
Coming back home, I touched the pillow and slept.
Receive a message of his at the next evening, ten one o'clock: Have slept? I say: No.
In the evening of third day, issue him an information: Have slept? He says: Plan to sleep. I have not sent. After a while, send over one again: Do you want to accompany me? Angry to faint. Back to one: You sleep.
Later, there is not information that had no telephone. Curiously, some days had calmed down to his miss as turbulent as tidewater gradually unexpectedly before me. I think, between us, but the emotion that first Section justs give a hint, walk too near, even that initial point is attracted and lost slowly.


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